So
I think it’s time to admit something I’ve been trying to get my head around for
a few days.
I’m
having a really big problem with food right now.
Although
I have a fridge and freezer full of meat and vegetables I’m finding it harder
and harder to find something I WANT to eat. Every day is turning into a battle
and it’s beginning to get me down. It’s also making it harder for me to stick
to this way of eating as I consider ‘forbidden’ foods in an attempt to find
something I want to eat (although being honest there’s not much I’m considering
there either).
I
suspect that partially the problem is that I’ve been eating pretty much the
same thing for two months now and I need a change. However, with my dislike of
cooking unless I’m really in the mood, and with my sometimes finicky tastes in
food it’s not that easy to find new things to eat that are low in carbs.
I
have always been a carnivore and a meal really isn’t a meal to me unless it
contains some meat or fish – I don’t really do vegetarian options. Since the
weather has started to get cooler I’m finding it harder to eat salad, as this
has always been a summer food for me. But the range of vegetables that I can
safely eat on phase one is rather limited, especially once you remove all the
stuff I don’t like and I’ve discovered that there’s only so many meals you can
have the using the same mangetout/broccoli /asparagus/green beans/ courgette/cabbage mix
without becoming sick of it. There
is, of course, that good old standby eggs and bacon, but even that gets boring
after a few days and there is a need for ‘green’ carbs rather than just protein
and fat based carbs, so it’s also not ideal. The same problem also applies to
my usual grab foods, ham, cheese and prosciutto.
It
doesn’t help that I’m generally not feeling very hungry these days anyway (I
guess 4 (ish) litres of water a day will do that to you), but my appetite is being
suppressed further by lack of desire for any of the food I currently own.
There
is a knock on effect to this. The food that I’m not eating is obviously going
out of date and in the case of the salad and vegetables it goes all mushy and
starts to rot. Normally I don’t have a problem dealing with old food, just throwing
it away and buying some more, but at the moment I can’t face eating lettuce
because a few days ago I threw out a bag that had gone all limp and slimy and
all I can think of is that. It doesn’t matter that the current stuff is fine;
it’s not, in my brain. And since the problem with the woody and undercooked
vegetables the other day I just can’t bring myself to eat any more of them
either.
And
so that brings me onto the protein shakes. Although they’re fine within this
way of eating, are very low in carbs and are good for exercising too, since I’ve
begun drinking the flavoured ones (as I think I worried about before I ordered
them) I’ve become addicted to them. To the extent, in fact, that at the moment I’d seriously
give up eating anything else at all pretty much just to drink them instead.
This
is obviously not good for a million reasons, but I’m not quite sure how I can
change my mindset and get back on track. It may be that I just need to go
completely off-track for a few days to shock me back into low carbing, but I
don’t really want to do that either as I’m having enough trouble losing weight
already without deliberately sabotaging it.
So
far today I’ve had some smoked salmon with cream cheese and several glasses of
water. I will be having a protein shake at some point and, maybe as my carbs
are so low today, a yoghurt – both of which I can just about stomach. I
obviously should be eating something proper, but at the moment I just can’t think of
anything that I can really face eating.
Today’s
exercise: A bit of housework
Carb's
Eaten: 13.9G (at 7pm)
Exercising
to: Lie
To Me and NCIS
Weight Loss = 1
stone and 2 pounds
Inch Loss = 12.5 inches
Mood: Worried
